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Letting Go of the Balance Beam

“I’m not going to try anything crazy, I’m just going to sit here, I’m just going to hold on. ”

That is kind of how my life has been. I don’t like much conflict, or drama so I mainly stroll along not wandering off the path of least resistance. I also don’t like putting my self in unfamiliar or uncomfortable situations… in other words I am pretty boring! If you watched the clip above you can just assume that I live hugging the balance beam.

A few months ago I got a message on Facebook from a friend/client of mine saying she needed to ask me a question. I was working at the time so I asked her what was up. She went on to explain that her and some other gals from her charity organization were planning a trip to India in January.  They were looking for someone to join them to document the trip and the work they are doing there.  She told me she was booking the flights the next day. It was probably a good thing I did not have time to think about what I was saying yes to!

Fast forward to now and next week about this time I will be on a flight to London and then on to India.  Mind you, I have never been out of the country and I don’t like flying. So God must really be wanting to teach me to trust him and not worry so much. Maybe He wants to prepare me for leading me away from the balance beam.

A little bit about the trip for those of you who are interested.  Illuminate India works with a handful of orphanages and children’s homes in India.  This trip will be a visit to a few of the projects bringing supplies for school and medical needs as well as research for new projects they hope to do in the future. My role will be to photograph basically everything! I never would have imagined that I would get an opportunity like this! Despite being nervous I am also very excited.

I would appreciate all of your prayers as we travel across the world! I cannot wait to share my experiences with you and see how God is going to use the trip to change me.

Bonus feature! On our way back from India we will be spending a few days visiting London and Paris! I will probably not ever get to travel to Europe again (unless we win the lottery) so I am pretty excited about this!

Are you living life afraid? Holding too tight to comfort for God to be able to move in your life or use you for His purpose? Is there one small thing you can trust Him with? Can you loosen up just a little on your grip or just back flip right off and let Him have control?

I will leave you with some super exciting photos of India and some of the awesomeness I have to look forward to!

Apparently cows hang out everywhere…

That is a lot of people!


P.S. If you want to help me be able to rent equipment to take on this trip with me you can check that out here!

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You know that saying “When Pigs Fly”? Well, that is what I would have told you if you had asked me if I would ever consider homeschooling my kids.  Not that I had anything against it or those who chose to home-school, I just could not ever see myself being able to do it. Forget the fact that I am not a teacher and in most cases learned things quickly so waiting on others to learn is not one of my strong points. Sounding out words with my kids is not something I thought ever sounded fun.  Add to that the idea of having my kids home with me all day and well that in my opinion seemed like the perfect storm for losing my mind!

So with all that said, today was the first day of home school for my daughter! Haha! Hilarious, yes I know. But when your kids are struggling well you will do anything you can including home school. Since the beginning of this school year, Hallie has struggled with a variety of issues at school. Socially she has felt left out by other kids, been teased by a group of girls that included one of her best friends from last year, and made to cry in class by a trouble causing boy. Yes, I know all kids deal with these issues and we could easily have worked with her “to” deal with this and prayed she would not be a tormented teenager in the years to come. Academically, she has always been ahead of her class. Partially because she is a year older than most kids her grade and partially because she is a crazy mad reader so she just learns differently.  She was super bored and increasingly despising school more every day.  So after meeting with a variety of home school moms, talking with Hallie and praying about it we decided to pull her out.

Homeschool is so different than what most people think it is! I know very little and have stuffed my brain full reading blogs and curriculum sites so wrapping my mind around it is slowly happening. I am actually really excited to be able to teach her things she is interested in and still get in spelling, history, science and reading. We are going to be working on character building and memorizing scripture as well, therefore, teaching her heart not just her mind. This could be temporary and she may decide she wants to go back to school in the fall, or we may love it but for now that is where we are at.

So no, we are not becoming crazy hippies, or trying to “rescue” her from the world and dealing with life. We are trying to do what is best for her at this time in her life and for now this seems like it.

I am going to go out on a limb and say that God will be teaching me as much or more than she will be learning through this process so here is to learning new things in a new year and trusting God to help me through the craziness!


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Well, it is the third day of 2014 and I am blogging. I have only had this blog up and live for a few months with no posts but hey that is life right!?


I do not consider myself  great writer so be aware I am not intentionally trying to bore anyone with my posts! I just wanted to use this as a way to document my thoughts and all of the excitement that 2014 will bring.

Two HUGE (well at least for me they are HUGE) things are happening right now. One being a trip to INDIA at the end of this month and the adventure of taking on homeschooling my daughter.


I plan to share more about both of those things soon but wanted to at least get something up here!


I will leave you with the song Oceans. Every time I listen to this song I feel as though I am going to burst into tears. I cannot explain why. Maybe it is the words that are so true to my desires. Maybe it is hypnotic melody or maybe it is just the Spirit moving through the song. I don’t know but I know that I love it and I am making it my anthem. The only way for me to power through some of my fears and frustrations is to call upon Christ and to trust that he will carry me through whatever I am facing.  So as we start this new year full of new goals, hopes and fears I pray that I am led where my trust is without borders and I am brave enough to venture onto the waters.

Hillsong United – Oceans (Live) from Hillsong Church on Vimeo.

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